Sunday, October 25, 2009

Fully Dependent

This week has been one of the toughest both physically and emotionally as well as one of the most peaceful and blessed. Let me explain...Being sick the past few days has enabled me to do a lot of praying, meditating, thinking and well realizing; what have I realized, yet again...the fact of how dependent upon my God I truly am for EVERYTHING. As simple and maybe foolish it may sound, I have realized that a lesson even in my moment of weakness being sick is the fact that it is by His grace that I even can have the strength to get up in the morning. It's funny to me that I forget these simple truths so often and take so many of the simple blessings in life for granted, that I have to be thrown on my back or have a moment of suffering in order to realize my utter dependency upon my Jesus. As much as I hate being in a place of weakness, sickness, trial or suffering, I have come to realize that it is in these moments in my life that I find true joy because I can experience the love of Jesus in a more acute way than in any other time in my life.

During the past week there have been a few verses that have pulled me through:

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

and

2 Corinthians 3:17-18 "Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect[a] the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit."

and

Isaiah 26:3 " You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you."

All three of these promise very different things, but all three of these show the character of my God; a God who is all-powerful, a God who is faithful, a God who has planned out each moment of my life, a God who is working in the midst of ALL things, a God who is making me, His daughter more like His Son, and a God who provides a joy and a peace to me as HE enables me to trust Him. Oh the precious blood of Jesus that has enabled me to experience this fellowship with the God of the universe. It is so amazing to me that the God of the universe desires to have a relationship with me, that He would enable me to daily trust Him, and that He would choose to allow me to suffer for His sake in order to make me more like Christ. You may be thinking I am talking crazy at this point, but for those of you who have been through tough times, the fire, through suffering and pain, you relate because you know that it is in the valleys in which you experience God's love in a fresh new way.

My favorite song in all of history is a hymn written by Horatio Spafford. Horatio wrote the hymn shortly after his only son and four daughters died and all of his fortune had been ripped from his hands in a moment. In what the world looked at at as the lowest point in Horatio's life, a time of terrible suffering and pain, tragedy really, Horation saw as a triumph and a time of refining because the strength of His Father in Heaven. Before I leave you with some of the precious words penned by Horatio, remember you are FULLY DEPENDENT; may you be encouraged that wherever you are, in trial and suffering or in triumph and joy, to run to your Jesus and find joy in His salvation, find strength in His power and find peace in His perfection. May we sing as the great hymn writer did, Whatever my lot, thou has taught me to say, it is well with my soul!

"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul."

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Strength in Surrender

I remember clearly the moment that I surrendered my life to the Lord; I remember the tears I shed and the feeling of a burden being lifted from my back that I would no longer have to bear. Matthew 11:30 says, "For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." I remember thinking why me? and marveling at the amazing grace that had been freely given, and in that moment all seemed so right. Since then, my life has been full of many trials and triumphs that have built upon that foundational moment in my life. What I have learned time and time again is that there is no more precious and comforting place then at the foot of the cross, clinging to my Jesus and depending fully on Him.

Surrender, it is a powerful word and brings many visuals to mind. The actual definition of the word is to give up, an acceptance of despair, to give up after defeat. The Biblical definition of the word is to give into the hands of another, into the power of another; to deliver to one to take care of and manage; to give itself up. I love the idea and the picture of surrender presented all throughout Scripture because along with it comes full dependence on the one you are surrendering to, Jesus Christ. Throughout our lives as Christians we are called to surrender situations, relationships/people, trials, sins, etc. to the Lord allowing Him to bear the burden, the load that we can't carry on our own.

Recently I have been face to face with this very thing as I have had to surrender some serious things to the Lord in full dependence and reliance upon Him and His perfection. Despite the promise I have in who He is and the promise that He will work all things together for good (Romans 8:28-29), my sinful human flesh desires to control situations and to want to know all the answers or to make people SEE the Truth for what it is; but the truth is "I" can't! I must rely on Him to do the work, I am simply the sower and He is the grower!

There is such a peace that is found at the foot of the cross in complete surrender as you lay your burdens down. Isaiah 26:3 has been a constant reality for me, "You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." I am so blessed to have a Father in heaven who wants to bear my burdens, who wants me to surrender all to Him, to as the Biblical definition says, "manage and take care of me". I have found that in surrender there is strength, a power that you can't explain, a joy that can't be hidden. I am so amazed at who HE is and what He has done and am hopeful of all He has yet to do.

My prayer for you is that you too will find hope and comfort and strength in surrender at the precious feet of the One who saved you, who loves you, who comforts and protects you, and who will take care of you forever more!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Trusting through Tears

I can't help but feel. Don't you sometimes wish that you were numb to emotion, to circumstances, to trials; I mean I know that all the pain I feel is a result of sin and that one day I will live free from it, but there are often times I want so badly to just be free from feeling. I recently have been bombarded with what has seemed like heartache to the max. My hurt hasn't stemmed from a circumstance in my own life or the sin that so easily entangles me but rather from a distance as I watch people that I love and have invested so much in simply draw nearer to the world and further from Him. I can't express the pain, the physical pain I feel within as I watch these people blindly living a life so far from what they used to, and from what the Bible commands. Despite the countless prayers and tears and the fact that I know God is in control the pain doesn't dissipate even though I have peace. And to be honest sometimes I sit and wonder what God is doing. I don't want to sound judgmental or that in some way I am putting myself on some pedastool because that is far from the Truth, I am merely experiencing the hurt and heartache of the sin of life.

Since the Lord saved me I have seen many of my friends come to the knowledge of the Lord, I have gained new brothers and sisters and God has enabled me to run with some, disciple others and be encouraged by many. Throughout the past eight almost nine years I have seen countless lives changed and the power of the Gospel displayed (Romans 1:16). It has been both humbling and well, it has pretty much rocked my socks off :). It is so amazing to see the power of God at work in the lives of people; and it is even cooler when we get to be used in some way to make that happen! From missions trips to youth ministry, from Christian colleges to coffee shops; I have seen God work through planting seeds, softening hearts and saving souls. All the glory goes to Him alone! Yet, within that time a parable that Jesus spoke long ago , as recorded in Matthew 13, has become more and more real than ever.

Many of us are familiar with the parable of the sower and the seeds, but fail to realize that Jesus was explaining exactly what was going to happen throughout the rest of history future. Lets look at the verses 1-9 :

" 1That same day Jesus went out of the house and sat by the lake. 2Such large crowds gathered around him that he got into a boat and sat in it, while all the people stood on the shore. 3Then he told them many things in parables, saying: "A farmer went out to sow his seed. 4As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 8Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. 9He who has ears, let him hear."

Here we see four types of seeds thrown out...

1) The seed that was thrown on the path and the birds snatched away
2) The seed that fell on rocky places with little soil that sprang up quickly but had no roots
3) The seed that was among the thorns and got choked
4) The seed that fell on good soil and produced a crop

And these four seeds describe four responses to the Gospel and four types of people...(V 18-21)

1) The people who reject the Gospel as the evil one snatches the Truth away
2) The people who look like Christians for a time but when hard times come they leave because there was no root
3) The people who hear the Gospel but the worries of life and the want of wealth choke it
4) The people who receive the Gospel and are saved and produces a crop

Throughout my life I have seen these four people and responses to the Gospel. The reality that the road is narrow and few will enter has become more and more real in my eyes. To say that my heart is burdened is an understatement; I look around at the people around me and I long for salvation to come to some and for fervor and passion to come for others. I desire so badly for people to receive the grace that God has afforded me and for God to move in radical ways for His glory. In the midst of my burden I am assured that God is working and that He is doing exactly what He has planned from before the foundation of time; and although it is not the way I may want it to be it is exactly how He wants it to be!

I have to face the cold hard fact that I am not going to understand it all. You know, someone once told me as I was discouraged by a seed that had fallen among the thorns that "Jesus had Judas". As funny as that might sound it brought me so much peace and encouragement because I realized that if the King of the universe had someone who betrayed Him, I too was going to have the same. Although these people may not have betrayed me they have betrayed my God and it breaks my heart! I so badly long for people to have a love for Christ that overwhelms them and a passion to run hard after Him, but what I realized is that I can't make it happen...only He can. Sounds simple enough, but how often I forget. I so often think I can change people, I can make them believe or turn from their sin or overcome something in their life, but I CAN'T...ONLY HE CAN! My job remains to speak Truth, to love and to get on my knees and pray, pray and pray some more!

As I sit here and remind myself of these precious Truths and find encouragement in His Words, I want to remind you who are fighting the good fight ( Philippians 3) and running the race to take heart, to press on and to endure through it all with your eyes fixed on Him; although you may not understand why God does what He does, why He hasn't saved the person you have prayed for for ten years or why your best friend is falling hard for the world; you can trust that God is working all things for His glory and His pleasure and that He is sovereign and in control. I want to leave you with one of my new favorite verses, please be encouraged and don't stop running. ""You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." -Isaiah 26:3

Friday, October 09, 2009

The Trials of Life

Let's face it, being a Christian isn't easy; in fact when you decide to repent of your sin and put your faith in God you are in for a life altering change that has now just put you against the world and the greatest enemy of all...satan himself. The tragedy we see today is that false hope of a perfect life is presented to people by many "evangelicals" when in reality that is not what Scripture teaches at all. In fact look at the following:

Matthew 5:10 "Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

Matthew 5:12 "Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

John 15:20 "Remember the words I spoke to you: 'No servant is greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also."

2 Timothy 3:12 "In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted"

These are just some of the verses we see in Scripture promising us that EVERYONE who is truly saved is going to face hardship, suffering, persuction AKA TRIALS of all kinds.

First of all lets think about what kind of trials the Christian faces...

1) God's Testing- This is a specific trial that God has put you through
2) The Enemies Persecution- Like Job, God allows Satan to test and try the faith of His beloved
3) Self Inflicted- Sin and the consequences of that cause you to go through trials

But what is the purpose of these? Why do we have to go through trial and suffering as a Christian? Why do we have to hurt and feel pain?

Romans 5:3-5 "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. "

1 Peter 1:6-9 "In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls. "

Trials of the faith enable us to be refined like gold, they strip away the bad stuff and make us more like Jesus. The trials of our faith enable us to depend more wholly on the Lord, and give us confidence in our salvation. They refocus our minds on what is important...eternity and the hope of heaven. And they allow us to relate to Jesus in a whole new way because He suffered through the most heinous of trials.

So the question then becomes how are you doing on the tests of faith? Are you passing or are you failing? Evidence of your salvation lies in your response to trials in your life. Matthew talks about the parable of the sower and the seeds, and one seed in particular that grew a little or appeared to until the weeds choked it; that represented the person who followed Christ when times were good but deserted Him in the hard times. If you are failing I urge you to ask yourself where your heart is, where your hope is, and why...turn from your sin and put your faith in Christ. If you are struggling through the hard times, find hope and encouragement in the promise that Christ has already wont he victory and as you cling to Him and depend on Him in this tough time you will overcome through His strength, press on. And if you are passing the tests of faith be excited about the confidence you have in the promise of your salvation!!

And although the Christian life is not an easy one there is a peace that transcends understanding, an unexpressible joy, a confident hope and an assurance of what is to come that floods the Christian's heart daily!!

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Real Conversion

Last night at small groups a very common question was posed, "What if I walked away from the Lord for a while and then came back...does that mean I wasn't a Christian to start?" This is one of the biggest questions that surrounds the evangelical movement today; this whole idea of rededication. Our HS pastor Bobby Blakey has a great blog on this specific topic (http://www.compasschurch.org/blogs/pastorbobby/rededicating-your-life-to-christ/) and after last night I couldn't help but touch on the issue myself because it has burdened my own heart and through God's grace I have come to realize that, brace yourself, THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS REDEDICATION, it just isn't biblical!

It should be enough that that term "rededication" isn't even found in Scripture but I want to try and support it even more. Let's think about what happens during "conversion" and try to see if rededication makes sense logically. I think the best passage to go to is Ephesians 2:1-10:
"As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."
Lets break it down first as to what goes on in the conversion process...

Step One: You are dead in your transgressions and sins; You are living for yourself as you follow the ruler of the world (Satan) and your flesh and gratify the cravings of your sinful flesh. Wow that is pretty intense! So this person is dead and the "object of God's wrath". Now lets think about that logically for a minute, is it possible to be kind of dead, or sort of dead, or alive and then dead and alive and then dead? No, I'm pretty sure once you die physically you are dead. So the first thing we must understand biblically AND agree with is that pre conversion you are dead.

Step Two: Then what? Well because of God's great love for us, because of his mercy and grace, he has saved those whom He calls. Okay so something happens to make you go from being dead in sin to alive in Christ? This is typically called your "conversion point". So you weren't breathing, you wren't moving, nothign and then all of the sudden you came to life; that is radical! So how did you come to life? Well God in His love drew you to Himself and convicted you of sin and enabled you to repent (aka...turn away from your sin towards Him) and believe (aka actively trust in) in the Gospel message (Christ died for your sins and rose 3 days later, the penalty for sin was paid in full). Alright so the logical conclusion from this is that there is going to be a HUGE change in the person, I mean come'on if someone was dead and now they are alive I think you are going to notice!

Step Three: Lastly the rest of their life (whether that be one hour or one hundred years) is marked by "good works" which we were made to do. What are these good works also known as? Fruit; things like serving, fruits of the Spirit, spreading the Gospel, denying your flesh, giving up sin and putting on righteousness etc. Do these good works save? NO of course not, that already happened but they do do something very crucial, Paul said in Acts 26:20 that, "I preached that they should repent and turn to God and prove their repentance by their deeds"; in other words your fruit is going to be the living proof of the inward conversion.

Alright so now that we have that understood back to this whole idea of rededication. Christians always ask if it is possible to have a "period" a "season" in their life in which they "fell away". That is a tough question because each person and case is a little different, but I will do my best to try and clarify this biblically. Do Christians sin? Yes, until we meet the King we will sin. Do Christians struggle with sin? Yes, nonChristians don't because they constantly give in, the Christian battles. Do Christians have "seaons" of their life in which they are LIVING IN SIN? No! That is not biblical, no where in Scripture do we read of someone who lived in sin for some period of time. Now we do read of many who sinned, for example David, the man after God's own heart who committed adultery and murder, or Peter who denied Christ three times; these men sinned, but was it a lifestyle of that? Were their lives characterized by that sin? Absolutely not. In fact both were almost immediately repentent, turning from that sin and turning to God for forgiveness and restoration.

If you are alive how can you be dead again? You can't! There is no way that you can be a carnal Christian, you can't really be saved and yet live in sin; God promises us that we no longer walk in sin (Romans 6) but we walk in holiness as we have the ability to say no to sin and to say yes to righteousness.

So what does it mean to be "living in sin" or have a life characterized by sin? Well first, you are as the passage above says, satisfying the cravings of the flesh continually; that goes for anything from lust to lying, from coveting to selfishness; your entire life is consummed with sin and there is no active repentance in your life. Secondly your life looks just like a nonbeliever, there is nothing that sets you apart from even the "best" non-Christian. And lastly you are not pursuing the Lord at all, there is no personal fellowship in the form of prayer or reading the Word, no serving, no fruits, you are a dead tree so to speak.

I could go on with examples but I will leave it at that. Ultimately there is only one moment in time in which you are converted, it is instant and it changes your life! Not only that but once you are saved you are always saved; John 36:37 says, "All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away." That is such a precious promise and a precious Truth that I forever hold onto. I love that once we are His we are forever! I know that even on this earth I will still sin I have the ability through His strength to fight that battle daily and to become more like Him, I have the promise that I will be rescued from temptation and He will discipline and chasten me even when I try to run away so to speak, how sweet is the Father to us.

John 12:46 says, "“I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.”" Once you are in the light you are ALWAYS in the light, find hope and peace in that!!