and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight."
-Proverbs 3:5-6
Last night was my best friend and her fiance's wedding rehearsal. The whole thing was surreal to me, I don't think I ever pictured the day that this would come. It was a great time of fellowship and fun, yet it got me really thinking and propelled me to write this blog.
I am going to be bluntly honest here and share a struggle that I often have, that is trusting fully and completely in the Lord when it comes to life-changing things. For a long time I have thought that it wasn't that I thought that He would let me down, because I believed He was faithful right? But the truth of the matter was that if I really did trust in the Lord with my WHOLE heart and believe that He was big enough to do anything I wouldn't fret and worry.
Over the past 6 months or so as Lauren's maid-of-honor, I have had the privilege of watching God sanctify both Danny and her more and more into His son's image and I have watched Christ grow them closer to each other preparing them for marriage. It has been a neat thing to see God's faithful hand slowly (definitely not in our timing) but surely, work everything out so smoothly and perfectly in His perfect will and plan. Both Lauren and I have talked countless times about how we fail to trust God with things yet has He ever let one of us down? No, of course not. As I see my best friend preparing for what is the second biggest day of her life after the day she became part of the Lord's family, there are tears in my eyes. I am so thrilled for this next season, not only in their lives, but in others as well, yet I am heartbroken at the fact that I am loosing my best friend, or at least it seems.
This morning God revealed to me once again that I am not fully trusting in His sovereignty and perfection. I need to realize that although yes things will change, He is ordaining this, His hand is upon this situation and I have nothing to worry about. Yes things will change, but for the better? I sat thinking about that for a moment...for the better? Could it really be. How could the fact that my best friend living thousands of miles away married could be better then how it used to be? I don't know, but what I do know is that God is faithful and that He is orchestrating each step we take as we obediently follow Him and His word. I am excited to see God use Danny and Lauren to further His kingdom in Colorado. And whether or not we see each other once a year or every ten, I am overjoyed to know I will spend eternity with the both of them! And what will I do while I wait on His coming, I will pray that God continues to sanctify me and use me for His kingdom.
"I went on with my eager pursuit after more holiness and conformity to Christ. The heaven I desired was a heaven of holiness." -Jonathan Edwards
Here are some pics from last night:
1 comment:
Bud, I can't even explain the way I feel, its a feeling i have never had before. I have tears streaming down my face, yet I have never been happier. You have been my best friend for over 6 years, and I love you to death. God has truly blessed us with eachother and I am anxious/excited about what will come next. God is doing amazing things in both our lives and I KNOW that He is faithful! We ALWAYS need to remind eachother of that! Though we will be farther apart than we ever have been, we will ALWAYS be sisters, and better yet IN CHRIST! FOREVER! When you said "Its ok, we get to spend eternity together with God" that is when our friendship reached a new level, a comforting thought from our Lord to us!!! We will be together forever bud! I am so excited and honored that you are such a big part of Me and Danny's wedding, and bud, you are the bestest. I love you.
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